A Few Words

EXHAUSTED

DRAINED

EMOTIONAL

CRANKY
FRUSTRATED
                                   
                                 A LITTLE ANGRY
                                 
                                 You know today was not great becuase I am typing this wishing it were my bed time.
                                  I am typing this while the rice mess from dinner hardens on my floor and counter.
                                  I am here whining instead of changing out the laundry.The same load I have rewashed
                                  two times, because I just can't seem to get to it.
                                  I wish that I could put this day to rest and move on. I crave that 5 letter word
                                  S.L.E.E.P
                                 A good nights's rest sure fix's a lot of things that seem important
                                 now but will be no big deal tomorrow!!!!! I hope...................                                

WHAT Happened...

To my day??? It started off so great, to bad it didn't end that way!! Went walking bright and early, went to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned, swimming and piano lessons went off with out a hitch. Left piano to return my rented lens and thought. I paid to rent this lens, I should really use it some more. We stopped of at Tempe Town Lake. Had a blast with my three oldest kids playing and shooting pics. Got in the car and the day was shot. Tried to get the key to turn. NO such luck. Tried for an hour, all the tricks I know for when the key sticks. Nothing works.... I am hot and out of patience. I called my sick husband to come rescue me. He called his Sister to sit with the littles and he came to my rescue. By this point my kids can't stop pestering me and each other. They are wired and fighting and NOT listening. They are tired and hungry. Layne had no better luck than I did. I called my friend to whine and she volunteered her Triple A benefits to us. Getting those tomorrow,by the way. They sent a tow truck. WRONG kind. We can't get the key to even turn so there is no putting it in gear. Run to Home Depot to see if a new key will help trip the switch and it will turn over, no luck there. Kids getting more restless by the minute. Wait another hour for the tow truck and they send the WRONG kind again. We had even explained the situation. We fed the kids a Burger King dinner on the grass. They loved it, we watched the wind shoot ripples through the water and the purple sun set.Got a little slap happy at times.

So it wasn't all bad. Our Great Friend MV graciously offered to stay and wait for the THIRD tow truck and didn't get home until 9:30. Our car is parked at her house and needing to be towed to the shop in the morning.I am ready to fall into my bed, and NOT repeat todays excitement for a LONG while. Hope the hit on the pocket book is small. I am sure it won't be, but I can hope, right?????

GETTING NOWHERE

I knew when I adopted my kids that they had baggage. I try not to dwell on it or bring it up to them in anger or frustration. I try to respect my children and their privacy. I lost my battle with self control today and Lightning got an ear full. It seems just when we think we are actually getting somewhere with him he hits us hard with everything he's got. The defiance, the fits, the playing the victim. I feel some days like I am pounding my head on the proverbial wall and that no matter what I do, I can not help him heal. I know he is in my home for a purpose and that the Lord has a plan for each of us, but some days I question my self and the Lord because I am obviously not getting it either. I have been to so many parenting classes,seminars and read every book I can get my hands on to help and well...I am getting nowhere!! At least that is how it feels. I lOVE my little man and I want him to be happy. He told Layne the other night he wants me to play with him more like I do the little kids. I do one on one with him and he can only bring up what I don't do for him instead of being grateful for what he has. At the same time he is a kind tender hearted boy who has had it ROUGH !!He can bring contention to our home in an instant. I do not nor never have expected perfection from my self or my kids. All families have their moments and even days. When I have days like I had with him today though I think how can I keep this up? The same way I always do I get up the next day and begin again and pray for the best!! I think that's all any parent can do regardless of the situation!! I just hope I figure it out before it's to late!!!! This kid is smart and has soooo much potential!!

On a brighter note my fun little girls decided to lighten my load today and play house by cleaning mine. No complaints there!!! They each got rags way to wet and went to work. We almost had a few accidents but in the end almost all the yucky spots were off my floor and no other surface in my kitchen was left untouched. Thank you little munchkins!!!

I sent Lightning off to boredom Busters. A much needed break for Mom! Put the little ones down for naps waxed a client and then headed for my Sisters house to swim. Sun was not really what I needed after my long morning and when I got to my Sisters I remembered why I do not take my kiddos swimming very much. The babies HATE it. I guess if I did it more often they would get used to it so if my Sister can tolerate it, that's what I'll do.

Part of the problem is my kiddos have never had swim lessons . The logistics just do not work out. No Mommy and tot class because there are three under two. No sitting in the sun with three little ones while older ones take classes. I am just waiting until they are older.

Q-Ball wanted out of his car so bad and Miss M almost drowned in the deep end after jumping off the diving board.She has no floaties on or adult by her when she tried her stunt. The sneaky little thing. Luckily my niece chantell got to her quickly. See, the poor kid needs swimming lessons. After my little scare today I will MAKE it work next summer and ALL my kids get lessons somehow!!

I called Layne after a good crying fit today and told him what a not so calm day we had and this amazing man picked up Lightning and dinner and dressed the babies for bed and did Starfall with them. He really is the best Daddy to our brood of hooligans, and I am so grateful he is mine. Thank you, for the break. I really needed it!!!
Just look at him counting to ten and keeping them entertained!
Tomorrow is Movie fun, and a busy day, and I KNOW it will be better all around!!