My first word for the year yep, I chose two, is Health. Many peope know we have adopted 5 of our 7 kids, soon to be 7 adopted. We chose adoption due to infertility from PCOS. I seldom share all or many of the details with anyone unless you happen to be a close friend or my Sister. I think because I feel safer keeping all the gory details to myself. They are often times not pleasant. People don't really want to hear you have a pity party for yourself either. I am amazingly blessed 7 times over from infertilty, so why dwell on it right? Well, there are quite a few down falls to having PCOS. (Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) Just to name a few, severe hormone imbalances, weight gain, adult acne, no periods or infrequent ones, miscarriages ( I have had many) infertility, anovulatory cycles, (no egg) male pattern baldness, heart disease, insulin resistance, increased risk for Ovarian Cancer. Any takers??:) I have often said I would rather be fat with acne than skinny and bald.......... Well since I got married and my PCOS has been in high gear I have gained more weight than I think is fair for anyone to have to carry around. I think some people think it does not bother me,WRONG. I think any girl who is bigger especially in the society we live is just fooling herself if she thinks she really is ok with being over weight. I think I have been in a state of self imposed denial. Don't get me wrong I have tried several things to remedy my hormone imbalances, weight gain, insulin resitence, and high cholesterol, with little or no sucess. Discouragement would set in rather quickly, and I would be back to my, I can do what I want it doesn't matter anyways attitude. When you have PCOS loosing weight is actually harder for you than the average jo. Don't believe me? Ask DR OZ.... I have spent a lot of time in my doctors office lately (OBGYN) hearing the, you better get your health in order lectures. I tried a new med for PCOS with no luck, and now I am on a different one which if I get to much of makes me throw up constantly, sooo fun.... So my insta family had been one of my excuses for not getting this thing under control, now they are the MAIN reason for choosing health as a word for the year.Not just a word but a new way of life and thinking. If I don't find time to take care of me, I will not be able to take care of them, 5 AM work outs ughhhhhhh........ That point was driven home to me at my last Dr's visit. My kids have all ready had to say goodbye to one set of parents, good or bad, and there is no way I will be the cause of them saying goodbye to another set!! I also want to be able to continue to play with them.
PLAY is my second word for the year. I want to play with my kids more. I want to be healthy enough to hike with them, to play ball with them, to sit and play blocks, to kick soccer balls, etc, etc, etc. Let's face it, it takes A LOT of energy to just do the day to day tasks of Mothering 7 kiddos. I have a responsibilty to them and to myself. So I joined the gym today and even if I don't loose a pound, I will be helping my hormone imbalance and heart disease. Exercising lowers estregen and cholesterol. I am hoping after the initial what in the heck have I done to my self stage, that I will have more energy from excercising and eating foods that are on the low glycemic index.Some thing I have been doing all ready. A must for some one with insulin resistence. So my words go hand in hand, I need to improve my health no matter how hard a road I have ahead of me. In improving my health I hope to be a happier more playful Mom. The big 40 is not to many years away and I need to have this under control before it hit's. Every Dr. I have spoken to says a lot of things change and my parenting will definately go down hill with my body if I don't start fighting this now. This all sounds way easier than I am sure it will be but, who doesn't want a healtheir more play filled life?
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I hate that you have to deal with PCOS. Hate it, hate it. Good on you for joining the gym. I need to be better at exercising too.
Two great words!
I have three co-workers all dealing with PCOS. It is interesting that each one of them approaches it differently. The ONE that exercises and does all she can to be healthy, is the one who is the happiest and is finally losing some weight.
Good luck to you! Good job on facing it head on!
I am so proud of you! I am sure this was not easy to put out there....and I can't even begin to understand all you have been through. But I know we are given our trials for a reason....and you are an inspiration to so many, including me! Eventhough I have lost all my baby weight, I am FAR from healthy! I am exhuasted every single day, and I don't even come close to exercising or eating right. This post made me want to do it....for me and my family! So thank you for sharing your trial with us! HUGS!!!
PS--AWESOME words! :)
ok again. I luff you!
I don't have PSOC but I have had my share of miscariages too and they are horrible, on your body and your soul. sorry. But you have been blessed in ways other people. These children ARE meant to be with you, they are your children, and they are loved and they love you.
Next. losing weight.. I have never been so big.. so I am not huge but this is the biggest I have ever been in my life, (not being pregnant) and I am not ok with it. Being in a cast for almost 7 months and not being able to move much has added a lot of weight to me too. ugh.. I need to join a gym, I need to excercise, but not yet, not untill I heal I guess. oh well.. hugs to you for jumping on that bandwagon, one which I should be on too!
AWESOME words. LOVE that you chose two that go together so well.
:) You know that I am happy to listen anytime...I'm so sorry that this is one of your trials in life. You are an amazing woman and mother and if ANYONE can do it...it's YOU!
Good choices, both of them! Good luck with your quest. I need to exercise, just to get me more healthy and energetic....but I seriously lack the motivation right now. Good for you for finding it!
Go for it! I started back to the gym too as I've gained some weight this year. The whole acl and broken foot thing really set me back. I'm sure 6 years dealing with PCOS is much more difficult! But it really stinks any way you look at it. (:
I have to tell you that I get a huge grin every time I read your blog. I love all your pictures and your stories. Your kids are all adorable. You really are blessed!
What a great post. You are going to do what you need to do, I know it.Your heart is right.
I love anyone who has been successful at adopting.I tried several times (including going to Mexico) and it never worked out for me my hub.
What a cute mom you are.
Absolutely love your 2 words.
Those sound like great goals. And it is a good idea to put it out on your blog to help give yourself some support! Not to mention accountability. It is hard for some people to understand pcos unless they have it. I feel like I have a better idea than somebecause I have a sister with it and another good frined. Not to mention my own struggles with hormone imbalance.( I know it's not the same)It can be so frustrating when people don't understand it is harder for you to loose weight than it is for them. My sister had to get gastric bypass surgery. I guess your pcos gets a little better when you lose weight, though it is almost impossible to lose weight with pcos. Makes no sense really. You are a fabulous mom and I am sure you will continue to do what you need to for your kids.
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