Well,it's just not true!
I was getting Sissy
ready for church. We have had a few questions about birth parents around here lately. I guess it's fresh in her mind. It was just me and her. She asked,
"Mommy, where's the other Poppy?"
"Sissy, I don't know, who are you talking about?"
"You know, when you left me with the other poppy, and he was mean, and I would cry for you."
" Oh your birth Father"
"Ya"
"It was not my choice that you had to stay with him for a little while. Daddy and I worked hard to keep you safe." We worked hard to get you home!"
"Hes(yes) Mom, I cried for you and you did come"
Now it's my turn to cry. Sissy's been a part of our family since she was 12 months old, minus a short stay with her birth Father where we did in fact find out all was not well. I wish I could wash it all away!!! Erase the memory's for her. I do remember dropping her off there a number of times, because it was court ordered that I be the"babysitter' while she was in his care. I remember her fits as I left. I remember crying right along with her.What a helpless feeling that was. It's hard not to be mad at life's cruelties some times.Why my sweet little girl had to experience this? A helpless child at the mercy of adults who should KNOW better. Questions I will never have the answers to. The answers really don't matter. How I help her heal from these sad experiences, does matter!! It reminds that sometimes how I react to situations,good or bad, shapes who they are. I know that, but some times I know I act as though I don't. I hope I don't forget this conversation soon. It was a vivid reminder of how they can recall these young years.The most important, formative years of a childs life.
9 comments:
WOW! That is so powerful!! I'm so glad that Sissy could come back to your family and be a blessing to you as well.
I couldn't help but get a little choked up.
Sissy is such a sweet little girl & you are doing a great job filling her head with new happy memories that hopefully will help get rid of most of the bad ones.
Oh, that makes me want to cry! How lucky your family is to have that sweet little girl and for her to have you! It is too bad she remembers those things. I hope she can forget, or learn something from it.
I'm so scared of what is going to happen in 16 days. I hope whatever happens is best and works out. I don't want to see the boys go through much more with the system.
Oh that breaks my heart. I am so glad she is yours now.
It is hard to believe that they remember but they do! It breaks my heart to hear that and makes me cry too! She has such wonderful parents now that hopefully all the good will help erase the bad!
How blessed is Sissy to have you in her life. Your absolutely right. We don't have to know the "why's" to everything. But understanding what to do next is crucial!
What a tender post.
Jamie! Wow! I have just discovered your blog and relate so much to it. What a great job you do and what a fabulous photographer you are! Your poor little Sissy. It breaks your heart doesn't it? Well, you're obviously a fabulous mommy and make me want to be better for my boys and for all my kids for that matter. Thanks for the inspiration!
She is a blessing and I am thrilled that she is in good hands!
thanks for posting this....she is a wonderful little child and so lucky to have you and it's such a good reminder to all of us!
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