MEMORY LANE MONDAY!!

A few friends and other bloggers have asked for this particular memory of ours, so here it goes. This is a recent memory, it is our infertility and adoption story.
My Husband I were married four years ago. We got married a little later in life and knew we did not want to wait too long to start a family. Six months into our marriage we found out we were pregnant. A week and a half later we had our first miscarriage. Not to long after that we were referred to an infertility specialist due to my age and some other factors. I had a battery of tests run and found out I have PCOS (Poly-cystic-ovarian-syndrome). This disease effects woman in different ways. It is the leading cause of infertility in women and a leading cause of miscarriages. Due to the results (Some false) of the tests I had taken we moved straight to In-vitro. For those who have not experienced this it is a ride that can be very hard to take, emotionally and physically. I would have never thought I could give my self shots in my stomach. I did become pregnant twice through In-vitro and miscarried both times. Heartbreaking!!! Not long after my third miscarriage my GL ran into onehm's husband and they got to talking about things and he really encouraged us to try the foster adopt route. We prayed and talked about it and felt like we should pursue this avenue to start a family. We knew it would be hard because we knew some kids would come and we would fall in love w/them only to see them leave. We also knew we were not getting any younger and did not want to get to the point where we were to comfortable by ourselves and to selfish w/our lives. I talked endlessly to onehm who helped me out so much. She helped me understand how things worked and talking to her was a tremendous help!! Onehm is still the one I call when the road gets bumpy. I am so grateful for her support and advice. After all our training was complete we could not wait to have a child placed in our home. The call came on OCT. 7th 2005. Our agency asked if we would be able to take two pretty tuff kids.I said yes, called GL and by one that afternoon Lightning and Miss M were a part of our family. They immediately referred to us as Mom and Dad and we were so excited to adopt them. It was a long road but they became ours permanently on June 28,2007. About four months after their arrival Sissy came into our family. She was w/us for eight months and was w/a bio parent for as short time. We were so excited to welcome her back into our home last march. While she was gone Lightnings and Miss M's Bio Mom had Baby H. She came to us straight from the hospital and we had her for five days, she was then returned to Bio Mom and then came back to us when she was five Months old. It was very hard to let her go for that time not knowing if we would ever see her again. Baby H will be ours permanently by the end of the year. While she was gone Smiley came to our home and melted our hearts. We know his stay is only temporary and our hearts are breaking. We believe though that Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us and we need to trust him. It is not always easy. We went from zero to five kids in eighteen months it has been the ride of our lives. In that time I had one more miscarriage. These things are never fun, yet it seemed not to be as hard as before because of all the little love I was surrounded by and busy with. We are so grateful for each little spirit sent to our home and will always love these precious souls whether they are to be ours forever or return to paternal families. Be sure to stay tuned for the rest of the story!!!!!